a poem :)

My hope

The sun makes me burn
And the rain makes me wet,
Standing still makes my legs hurt
Walking makes me sweat.

When I stand in the park
And watch the children playing
I feel like a beast,
Get down on my knees and start prying

Why does everything in life seem so worthless?
And crappy
Why can’t I be normal?
Why can’t I be happy?

Tell me it is just a phase
And it’ll pass by
One day I will again
Jump up with joy,

I don’t feel like continuing
I want to end this difficult trail
But in my attempts to do that
Also I fail,

I know I should go on
I know I should live
But how can I when I feel nothing
When I receive something or give

Sometimes I feel the crowd will
Drive me to the end
Sometimes I feel that my shadow
Is my only friend,


But I know in my heart
I have to hold on
I don’t want to be that person
That came and is now gone,

Not for my family not for this world
I have to live for me
Hopefully the sense of all this
One day I will see

Till then I m fighting and
I will strive
I know I am a survivor and
I will survive

Its difficult I know it
But I will have to cope
I seems I have lost everything
But I cannot loose my hope.